magic

One of my favorite things to do would have to be listening to live music.  Wether it's at the farmers market street corner or  a major band playing at an insane theater.  There's something about drinking a cold beer, relaxing to the tunes of master musicians.  On Friday night I added to the list of great bands I've been fortunate to see in my life.  Sigor Ros.  And it was by far one of the best experiences I've had.  If you aren't familiar with them I strongly encourage you to look them up!  They are from Iceland and sing in Icelandic, but it is so amazing you hardly realize you don't understand any of the words.  It's beautiful music and so creative I promise you will be mesmerized within minutes.

David picked seeing them at the Santa Barbara Bowl for his birthday treat.  But I was just as excited and felt like it was my present too!  We spend the day in Santa Barbara doing some shopping and eating and laying by the pool.  It was the perfect mini getaway.

The weather was warm and we settled into our sets with our Pinot in hand.  I loved all the people watching and the excited talk about how much we all love Sigor Ros.  All of us strangers had one thing in common that night and it was fun to see the anticipation on all the faces around us.  The stage was draped with a thin white sheet on three side creating a gigantic box with shadows of the band members playing their magic on the other side.  The second they started playing we were silent, staring at the tiny musicians with mouths wide open in awe.  I was transported to another world that night.  I was so emotional and couldn't help but let the tears stream down my face.  In this life I have so much to be thankful for, and with that comes the reality that I have so much to lose.  Something that I try not to dwell on but know it's there.  I couldn't help but think about my life when the music was playing and become overwhelmed with so much emotion.  I'm sure the wine aided to my tears, and that's ok with me.  Sometimes it's good to look at life for what it is and let it take over for a few minutes.

I loved my weekend.  I'm so glad I got to see one of my favorites live with David.  If magic was a real thing this weekend was the product of it's powers.  

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"a portrait of my husband, each week, every week in 2013"

This is what David looks like when we are listening to Sigor Ros live.  At this moment the song that I walked down the isle to was playing, I had tears rolling down my face and couldn't be happier.  The picture isn't top quality and the lighting is awful, but I will remember this moment all my life.

our days

'cheese' face is killing me these days

sitting like a big girl.  melting my heart.

I can't stop raving about this book!  I'm addicted.

a typical day trying to get ready for work.  

the forgotten. 

best friends.

the yummiest. 

I spy a Charlie.

15/ 52

"a portrait of my husband, once a week, every week in 2013"

We were laughing about how obnoxious I was trying to get this picture.  I kept telling him  're-do' after each one.  I was so busy this week I forgot to get the camera and take a picture of this handsome mug.  I'm going to be better this week, I hope!

Figuring it out

When I started this little place I wanted to document Quinne of course, but I also wanted to connect and sometimes vent about parenthood.  It's hard and to write out what I'm feeling or going through helps so much.  I love to write and can express myself through writing much easier than in person.  Is that everyone?  Lately I've found myself conflicted about what to write about and what kind of blog I want this to be.  I have a billion thoughts racing through my mind at all times and I want to write some of those down.  Like when I get a new cookbook that is changing my life or that I want to jump in the car and keep driving until I'm in Mexico with a margarita in both hands because being a mom is really hard some days.  I go to write what  in my mind, will be a great post and that voice in the back of my head tells me it's a bad idea and nobody cares.  Nobody cares about your new sandals that were a good deal or the fact that Quinne is a mini monster right now.

Then it hit me that I'm still making decisions based on what people might think of me.  Fearing people not liking me or what I write about.  I have transported back to seventh grade.  I'm annoyed at myself for being insecure and silly.  I'm sad that I still care a little bit about what people think of me.  I have a husband and daughter, car and house payments, a job and friends, I am an adult.  I'm a grown ass woman!  I wonder why I still let my inner Jr. High me dictate what I do and say so often.

I'm making a change and I know it will take time to happen.  I'm challenging myself to do what I like and not live in this fear of not being accepted.  I am in control of my life.  What people think is their business and I have to be ok with that.  I am a good mom, wife, friend and daughter and that is enough for me.

a birthday!

Yesterday was Davids 31st birthday and I was a slacker and posted that last one today.  I wrote it yesterday, but then with all the fun we were having I guess I forgot.

Anyways, back to David.  We celebrated all weekend with a date, dinner with friends and a fun day with friends on Sunday.  I love other peoples birthdays!  I love showing them how much I love them and spoiling them.  David and Quinne are my prime subjects and will forever be spoiled rotten on their special days.

I'm so lucky to have David in my life.  We have been through a lot, and I'm so thankful for his love and patience.  I don't know what or where I would be without him.  He drives me crazy and makes me happy.  I love being with him and laughing with him.  Everyone who knows David loves him because it's so easy to do.  I am so lucky. 

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"a portrait of my husband, each week, in 2013"

This is the birthday edition.  Today is Davids 31st birthday and doesn't he look so happy?!  Ha!  This picture is at one of our favorite places in San Luis, enjoying a good falafel and beer with family.  I love when it's his birthday so I can make a big deal all for him.

Happy Birthday babe!  I love you so

an Easter Sunday

We spent the day over at Davids parents house, with family, friends and a lot of food.  Spending the night with the three of us in one room makes for three tired people in the morning.  But the sun was shining and Quinne was ready to take on the day, so we grabbed her hand and let her lead the way.  Not without a tall cup of coffee, of course!  

 the Easter bunny left some fun toys for Quinne.

 a quiet moment

 then back to chasing

 I wish this could've been our Christmas card! hahahha!

 I just love her dress so much

 looking for fish with uncle Jonathan

 my worst nightmare!  of course she would love the trampoline 

 Daddy showing her where he used to chase lizards

a naked egg hunt

I hope everyone enjoyed their time with family and friends!